For most of her life, Sabreet Kang Rajeev searched to find meaning in her familys immigration story. She read books about extraordinary immigrant’s triumphs and everyday tales of hardship. But the stories of her family and other generation zero families often felt invisible. If you’re a first or second-generation American, you know how hard it is to understand your reality, but you also know theres a great deal of beauty and strength to come from an immigrant family.

Maybe your working-class family sacrificed, maybe youve strived to accomplish your parents abandoned dreams, or maybe youre living a hyphenated identity, trying to make sense of the unique experiences that make you American. Either way, youre not alone.

Drew Appelbaum: Hey listeners, my name is Drew Applebaum and Im excited to be here today with Sabreet Kang Rajeev, author of Generation Zero: Reclaiming My Parents’ American Dream. Sabreet, thank you for joining, welcome to the Author Hour podcast.

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: Excited to be here, thank you so much.

Drew Appelbaum: Lets kick this off, can you give us a rundown of your background?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: Yeah, sure, I would love to. Background about me really, I think it just starts with the type of person that I am and what I do for a living. Im super inquisitive, Im a researcher and Ive always been looking for how to answer questions that are deep in my heart. I do that professionally by talking to consumers, whether it be anyone that really wants to have a conversation about trying to understand any kind of product or an experience.

I just love asking questions, Im a researcher but furthermore, I think the biggest thing about me is that Im always curious. I love telling stories, I love connecting with people, and in particular, I love talking to people that havent had the normal path of life, if that makes sense.

Drew Appelbaum: Sure. Why was now the time to write this book, was there a recent ahamoment, did you have an inspiration, or was it just you had a lot of time because of COVID?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: I think, its been a combination of a couple of things. Ive had this idea to write this book, for the past two to three years. Its really great timing I believe, but the ahamoment that I had was when I didnt see myself represented in media, whether it was in books or anything that I did, where I was trying to interact within my community or outside of my community. I always was searching for more answers.

I didnt feel like I felt that representation that I needed and even though there is a representation of people that have hyphenated identities like, Im an Indian American, I was born and raised here, but my culture has really influenced who I am as an individual. When I would interact with these individuals that are also Indian American or South Asian Americans, I always thought, I still have more questions, I feel like you fully dont understand my experience, whats going on here?”

I think its that void and my feeling that I didnt see myself in certain rooms. These were the reasons why I even wanted to write this book. The ahamoment really was, I hate to sound super cliché, about to go to bed one day and I said, I am going to write a book.” My husband said, Okay, youre now writing a book, well talk tomorrow, honey.” But really, I wrote a book.

The Emotional Journey

Drew Appelbaum: Were there any learnings or breakthroughs during the writing of the book, whether it was the introspective journey of your childhood or maybe researching how your parents came to America?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: I think that the writing process really, Tucker explained it really well, but its just a journey and the one journey that you can explain in it is an emotional journey. I learned a lot about myself through the writing process but more importantly, it was a great way to reflect back on my life about why I am who I am.

Since Im really passionate about storytelling, I do this professionally for a living, I love connecting with people, it was when I was parsing out these details in my story that I realized that I was actually starting to connect with myself for the first time, which I wasnt expecting. I wasnt expecting to connect with myself, my identity, what moves me, what really hurts me in such a deep way.

When I do talk to consumers, when I talk to other people, when I talk to family members, friends, I just walk through the door and somehow, people just tell me everything about themselves and I think, Do I have that face?” But it was the first time in my life where I was doing that to myself, truly understanding myself. That writing process was such an emotional journey that I feel like I am fully one with myself, and Im able to now help others understand that immigration history, their hyphenated identity.

So far, I really think that the biggest question I had in my heart was, Am I American, or am I Indian, or am I Indian American?” I have struggled with this hyphenated identity, I feel like I constantly play two different doors–what door do I want to enter today? Today Im going to go into the American door, tomorrow Im going to go into the Indian door. Ive never felt like I could open both doors at the same time but writing this story, that doesnt just begin with me, it begins with my parents.

Then it starts with me, and the journey that we both had together helps describe who I am as an individual and what we are as a family. But taking it a step further is what we are as a community.

So, if you know anything about sociology, Im a sociologist by nature, you try to look at the micro and the macro levels of any kind of human experience. For most of my life, Ive been looking at those human experiences from a macro level like, Why is this happening to me, why am I not American, why am I not Indian? Why am I not Punjabi enough, why am I not –?” Trying to peel off the onion, trying to understand my identity, and then realizing that hey, I just need to look at the full onion sometimes and understand, this is my collective experience as an individual and together as a society of what it means to be an immigrant and what it means to be an American, honestly.

Drew Appelbaum: You mentioned earlier, that you wrote this book because you couldnt really find books or stories about the dual culture experience. Why do you think this hasnt been written about before?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: Its a great question, thank you for asking that. I think one of the biggest things about this dual identity that I hadnt seen represented in the way that I wanted to feel seen is because I dont come from a background of educational or financial privilege. You know, those stereotypical comments about any kind of community, the one that comes with my community are that usually, Indians are super smart, theyre rich, and they just have their lives together.

Theres even a movie about crazy rich Asians and theres a reason that stereotype exists where there is the model minority myth. To understand that is very complicated if you understand that thats the main narrative thats sold to the American public. But the community has different experiences and if you have those different experiences, its harder to actually connect with your own community.

Forget about even connecting with the American community. To truly answer that question is I havent seen that anywhere. When I will look at books, when I watch TV shows, listen to music, I was always looking to see that one line about how hard my parents have struggled in blue-collar jobs. How hard has it been to really get educated, having just a blanket statement of getting educated and not being told that you need to be a doctor or a lawyer or something?

I never saw the representation. It was always, Yeah, my parents pushed me to become an engineer.” I thought, Well, its nice to have parents that are engineers to push you like that.”

Its because that representation doesnt exist right now. If you think about it from a macro level that is those communities and individuals in those communities, the types of jobs that theyre able to obtain and then what they do professionally for a living, really depends on how it is represented in media.

The Experience of Women

Drew Appelbaum: Now, you begin the book by speaking about your father and how he was upset that his firstborn was a girl, and can you talk about what having a daughter means in South Asian communities?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: Having a daughter in the South Asian community is, for a lack of better words, seen as a curse. It just gives you pause, its not something that is celebrated. Theres a big move in the South Asian community to talk about gender norms and gender expectations around childbirth and what it means to have a boy and a son, there are differences.

They still exist today. If you really think about being born and being told, Hey, something gave your parents pause because of your gender,” its natural for an individual, especially for me to ask myself whats wrong with me, why have I, at the first door of my existence already made my parents upset? But if you look at the Indian community and the South Asian community, in a large vacuum of those experiences and why there are differences between a boy and a girl is because of, you just look at history, girls come with dowries.

They leave the family, they dont carry the family last name, theres a lot of things that happen about the Asian culture that are tied so strongly to gender norms. When you have a boy, you know, he typically stays with you, carries your last name, and also takes care of you in your old age. A daughter is always seen as a temporary guest and since shes seen as a temporary guest when you have a daughter, thats how theyre treated. hats very much in the Asian culture and its just interesting to me to see the fusion of the Asian culture and the American culture in America and how that actually changes.

I wrote about how confused I was and I really didn’t understand why this was happening to me. How can I make someone so upset by just being who I am? I realized the ability for either your parents or the community to change that really determines why that need is still there, and for me, learning that there are differences between a boy and a girl in the South Asian community that Im a part of, helped me really resonate more with my American culture because regardless if youre a boy or a girl, youre supposed to do ABCD. Youre supposed to love me, you’re supposed to do all these things. I can be a very assertive woman and it doesnt essentially mean that I dont respect you or respect our family because of my gender.

Thats just my experience, and unfortunately to say, the experience of many women still today.

Drew Appelbaum: Yeah. Can you talk about what the definition of first-generation American is, how you feel like you fit into this definition, and why you chose to title the book Generation Zero?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: Thank you for asking that question because the whole concept of my book is generation zero–I honestly dont know what generation anyone belongs in, to be quite frank. I was researching this and I wondered, Am I a first-generation, am I a second-generation?” Being the nerd that I am, looking online, trying to research all these scholarly articles about what the true definition is, going to the Webster dictionary, theyre saying one thing. I go to the census bureau, theyre saying another thing.  I ask individuals that are living these experiences, they say, Im second generation because my parents came here and then they had me here.” Or, Im first generation because my parents immigrated here and then they had me. Im the first-born person here.”

The long story is that what generation you are part of really depends on your understanding of your family and your experiences and your community. Because in Webster’s dictionary, it says that the first generation is someone who legally relocated to a new country, whereas the census says that its the first person to be born in that new country. I think there are two different reasons for that. But what Ive grown to understand is that regardless of being a first or second-generation or a 20th generation individual, I think the immigrant experience really is when you come over here with your family, whether its an Asian family or not, youre generation zero together, you dont really know what generation you fit in, youre just trying to figure out if America is where you want to be for the rest of your life.

If I unpack that a little bit more, the biggest reason I titled my book Generation Zero is that, the immigrant experience, you really have to understand that you truly start at zero. You go to a country where no one knows you, depending on how much money youre bringing over, what type of social connections that you have, the ties that you have to the community. You have nothing, its zero, you might have a few hundred dollars, you might have a partner youre traveling with, maybe your family, but theres nothing that youre bringing over here, the only thing youre bringing is yourself and your ability to succeed.

That to me is what makes generation zero, but also, why its so complicated because if you think about the duality of identity when youre an immigrant or youre an American, you dont really know what to do with the hyphenated identity and that also happens with how you classify yourself as a first or second-generation individual.

Journey to America

Drew Appelbaum: Lets start from the beginning. Can you tell us about your parents journey to America?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: Its my favorite story. I feel like its like a true Bollywood movie to be quite frank. My parents came to America separately, but what really inspires me and gives me the courage to be the individual that I am today is my father and his journey and how he actually came to America.

Back home, hes from Punjab, which traditionally Punjab is an agricultural state, and being super educated isnt really known to be a thing thats really great about that state. There are several states in India and every state has its own actual culture, religion, and stuff like that. In Punjab, its all about agriculture.

I know that my dad, when he was growing up, he was I think in his 20s because the farming industry was lucrative but was declining, and he started looking abroad to how to make money. When you have a dream to make more money for your family if you live in a country thats not America, the dream always starts abroad. So, you think about, Where can I go, how can I get there, how can I make money that could help me where Im going and also my family?”

My dad dropped out of college, he started working at a cargo ship and the cargo ship goes to different parts of the world, it drops off either different spices or different types of materials to different countries and then returns back to its original destination. My dad was following in the footsteps of his brother and what he learned was that, sometimes, if you go on this cargo ship, depending on where you end up and who is looking, you can technically just walk off the ship and be in a different reality.

Thats very different if you think about the legal process of actually immigrating to America, its very cumbersome. If you think about the history of American immigration, in 1965, there was an act that was passed that talked about opening up the gates to other ethnicities in the world and one of them was obviously Asian ethnicities, but the reason for that was because they were looking for doctors and lawyers, there was a nationwide shortage of doctors and lawyers, so they were looking for those professions and they were looking for the smart Indians.

If you dont have those professional careers or you dont have the money to come here, you can already understand that your path to go to America is already watered down a little bit. So, with my dad, he chose a path that is not really talked about that much. He came to America illegally, made himself legal, and worked his butt off to make sure that he was truly the best American anyone could ever see because he always felt like what he did in order to get here wasnt valued if that makes sense.

Then after that, my mom came, and they got married. But it is just the courage to be so fearless that youre about to take on the greatest country in the world, America, and go there and being like, I am going to make myself and I dont really care what you have to say.”

Drew Appelbaum: Your family certainly went through a lot of hardship and briefly you were even without a place to live but you persevered. Your family persevered and you eventually had an apartment, you started going to school in Flushing, Queens, and eventually, Baltimore. What were the educational years and school years like for you?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: They were just very interesting and very different. I think the education system that I went through in New York and in Baltimore was very different. I think the biggest thing I want to focus on is just how everything in my life with my educational experience was a random occurrence. It was very serendipitous, by luck, by chance, that I was able to go to the right magnet school and be interested in the right majors.

My favorite story of my education experience is really just talking about my mom and how she made sure that I was able to go to a better magnet school in New York. She just saw the Superintendent one day and says, Hey, listen, I came to this country to send my children to a better system and here I am. I hope you can hear me out,” and the superintendent actually did. The point is its taking it a step back and really understanding my community and what it means when you are not part of the smart Indian concept.

Everything happens by chance and you only can do what you know best with whatever information and resources you have at that moment. For me and my family, it was whatever we researched, whatever we did at that given moment. Was it the right decision, was it the best decision? I am not quite sure, but it was the decision that we needed to make because those were the resources that we had.

I think the biggest, the most surprising thing about my education experience is that I went to a Catholic school. I am not Catholic. I am a Sikh individual but if you know anything about Indian culture and you know anything about India in itself, you know the British came and ruled India for a little bit and when they came over, Catholic schools were really celebrated, and back in India, if you go to a religious private school and that is considered a better education. Because thats what India has known to be best even though thats not true.

So in middle school, I went to a Catholic school because it was just understood that it was a better school in my community but I would like to disagree. It really depends on the student and teacher ratios, the community that you live in. There are very good private schools, you just have to spend a lot of money to go to them. Theyre more about educational rigor.

We did what we did with the information that we had because that was the best we could do, and that really has shaped me for the rest of my life. I was always assertive thinking about what was the next best step, what can we do? I have always been inquisitive. Its like I know this is the right decision right now but whats the next thing that we could do? And my education experience has taught me that.

Really if you look at it from a social perspective, being the only brown girl in an all Catholic school is kind of hard. People physically look at you and you dont look like them and youre kind of confused thinking, How do they know?” Because my whole life Ive been putting on a façade that I am American, even though I really am American, but I dont think people view me as an American.

So, I first interacted with that and learned about that in school when I realized, okay, well here I am opening my American door today and I am going to school and a kid is asking me, Where do you come from?” Im like, Well Flushing, Queens, sir. Where do you come from?” Hes like, No, I think your family is confused. Go ask where you come from,” and Im like, Oh my god, they might know that I am not that smart Indian,” and so I felt like I was being outed in that experience.

Truly Fearless

Drew Appelbaum: Your mom is such a symbol of strength in the book. Can you talk about your relationship and the few times she literally whooped some ass?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: My mom is superwoman. My mom and I are best friends. A lot of what I am as an individual today was shaped by what she has done for me. I feel like when you grow up as an individual and after a certain time in your life you realize, I like these values and I like these traits in my parents and I want to hold onto them.” The one trait that I love about my mom is just she is truly fearless.

I dont care about what you have to say or when you have to say it, she will tell you what she needs to say, and how to whoop your butt without a doubt in her mind. If you really understand South Asian women and South Asian identities, especially womens identity, it is very peculiar. South Asian women are supposed to be very submissive, they dont really speak their mind as much–I am talking South Asians that have come over here and they are immigrants themselves. They go with the status quo.

My mom has never been like that and she has always spoken her mind. That has been something that shed learned because she lives in America and has obtained some American traits.

My mom really is my hero and what really always surprises me, to this day, for example, I am the same age my mom was when certain things happened to her and I think about how determined and how courageous she was. If you know anything about blue-collar jobs, they are hard. Your body is hurting, your mind might be free if youre thinking about other things, but your body is literally and figuratively working itself to death.

My mom has worked traditional blue-collar jobs where she has been a cashier or manager for McDonalds, Wendys, whether that be a cashier at an airport stop but what really has always determined how she has persevered through any profession is shes never let that profession define who she is. She has let her personality and what she believes that she is, define who she is.

My favorite story in the whole entire world is when my mom literally beat someones butt because they were trying to rob a McDonalds. If you know anything about the immigrant experience and being an immigrant in America, youre sitting there and whatever job you have and youre just grateful for that job that is putting food on the table for your family. You will do anything to protect that job no matter what. Because you are protecting that job no matter what, that job becomes your family and that is how my mom treated every single job shes ever been in.

When someone came to rob her, she literally just kicked the crap out of them. Basically, the gun was put to one side, she literally kicked the crap out of him and he left. He was very scared because hed never truly met a crazy woman like my mom, and even to this day, I have never met someone like my mom.

What surprises me about her and I make sure its understood, is the determination and the fearlessness that she has shown as a South Asian woman through an immigrant experience is true bravery.

It is not something that you typically hear about, but it is one of those things, for example, when she did interact with the police officer that came afterward because they came when the store was getting robbed, they said, Maam, why did you do that? He could have literally hurt you,” and she said, Well, did he? He did not hurt me. I am still standing,” and in that one statement, you can truly understand just how brave any immigrant that comes to America truly is. They try their best no matter what.

A Struggle of Identity

Drew Appelbaum: Now fast forward to today, you are successful in your career, you have a family, do you still struggle to identify and then find comfort in both Indian and American culture?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: I actually still do and I think that is the beauty of that whole experience in itself. There is a great deal of beauty and heartache that comes with being a hyphenated identity. When I talk about a hyphenated identity, I am really talking about whether it is Indian-American or Vietnamese-American, any kind of American that you feel you just have to hyphenate and explain what type of American you are, that is a hyphenated identity.

I have struggled with that growing up a lot and I still currently struggle with that because you just dont know, depending on the person who youre talking to, depending on the community that you are in, what traits are going to implicate you and what traits they are trying to elevate.

Having a hyphenated identity, you are always really self-aware. Aware of who you are presenting and the community that comes behind you, and regardless of everything that has happened in my life and being professionally successful and everything like that, Ive realized that regardless of my success that I have obtained and where Ive come in my life, I always have to explain who I am first, and thats because I am truly never comfortable because I feel like people will just assume that I am that smart Indian.

The reality is, “You know, you have no idea what I had to do in order to be here,” and I feel like because of that, I am still trying to understand those experiences. Mostly, I think I am just ready to be that voice for that community that doesnt have that champion. It is hard, the biggest thing I have to say is that writing a memoir is probably one of the biggest taboos that you could do in the South Asian community. No one wants you to do that.

They would rather you write fiction, they would rather you write poetry. If the arts are encouraged, they are encouraged in a very fictional way. To have an individual that is okay with saying that Ive had these experiences and also talk about being a woman, and what it means to be a woman in that culture, to talk about how to be assertive, talk about how your parents have come here, people dont really talk about those things

Regardless, there is a huge group of people that are here that are part of the immigrant experience, they dont talk about that. You are just always trying to one off each other, be better than another person, which I personally dont feel like you should do. I feel like the last thing that I want to do in my hyphenated identity understanding is to be that person that I have seen so much in my life when I was growing up.

When I was growing up, I would see people brushing off other people that are marginalized as if they think that they are less. The biggest struggle that you have with the hyphenated identity I really think is you dont truly belong anywhere. I think it is okay not to belong anywhere. It is okay to be in that limbo between two cultures and feel like you can open this door or the other door.

What you really have to focus on is you are in a house and you can choose to be in that house, and open any door that you want, and theres some great beauty in that if you truly celebrate the way that we would like to.

I have the opportunity to be whatever identity I want to be, and they can co-exist because I am in my house.

Drew Appelbaum: In America now, do you feel like the immigrant experience has changed or gotten better or worse since your family came over?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: I definitely think that the immigrant experience has gotten worse, theres been a lot of laws, a lot of media awareness around the immigrant experiences. The biggest thing that I would like to say is that growing up, my parents told me this story several times and its how they came over here. I hear about that in the media and school, its not really talked about in the way that it is understood by me, where it is just so heroic to be that fearless to come to a country, and not just to come here to do whatever, it is to try your best.

I think at the end of the day, humanity is just trying to be the best person that they can be. I think everyone is trying to do that but I never saw that and I think as time has gone on, its gotten much worse. I think about if this path that my father had taken and my mother had taken happens today, what would that mean? I think it would leave out a group.

I write about this in my book–I am proud to be an American. I am proud to be here because being here and seeing how my family has changed in their thinking in the cultures that they have adopted, what they believed to be true is so different than if we were still in India. We go back to India sometimes and you see that people are still standing still there. They arent changing and the greatest beauty about America is the diversity of thought. It is just so sad that instead of celebrating immigration, we are scared of people that are different than us and I dont think we should be doing that.

Drew Appelbaum: Well, we just touched on the book a bit. Your stories are very rich with details and you are very honest in the book, and so I want to say thank you for writing this and especially a book like this that is going to help so many people. So, congratulations on finishing your book and publishing.

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: Thank you so much, that means so much to me.

Drew Appelbaum: Now, if readers could take away only one thing from the book, what would you want it to be?

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: It is okay to be authentically who you want to be. The immigrant experience, the American experience, there are a thousand ways people will try to define who youre supposed to be. Whether you are an Indian first, whether youre a woman first, whether youre an American second, or whatever, I feel like our whole lives are just defined around the report card we carry with us. Hey, I am X, Y, and Z.”

Just be who you want to be and celebrate those differences within yourself in a way by showing courage to be yourself. I think in the immigrant experience it is really hard to understand what identity you want to be, and if there is anything that I could say to my readers it is regardless of what you think you want to be or what identity youre resonating more with, it is okay to choose whatever you have chosen because thats the beauty of being you.

Drew Appelbaum: Sabreet, this has been a pleasure and I am excited for people to check out this book. Everyone, the book is called, Generation Zero, and you can find it on Amazon. Sabreet, besides checking out the book, where can people find and connect with you

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: They can find me on LinkedIn with my name, Sabreet Kang Rajeev, Instagram, Facebook, just feel free to look me up, and also, you can connect with me on my website at

Drew Appelbaum: Awesome. Sabreet, thank you so much for coming on the show today, and best of luck with your book.

Sabreet Kang Rajeev: All right, thank you.